An Ode to My Anxiety

You were unexpected.

A thought I hadn't formed

a light-hearted spring rain that 

became a raging winter storm. 

You were rejected 

A feeling I didn't want.

A powerful force thrust upon my chest

already caved in by the bloody stones

blocking the blood flow to my cavity.

Weighing on my subconscious

sinking into my cracked ribs

pressing on my collapsed lungs

greater than gravity. 

Shaping my world

to a form I didn't recognize

Creating hurricane-like winds in my skies

Carrying the lingering stench of my fear freezing me into place.

Burning my already hailing eyes raining down as the blizzards break on my face

Why are you here?

You evolved from a voice in the back of my head 

to the words I'm too afraid to say

and instead. 

you changed from the one thing 

I tried to shove down my throat 

to the only thing I see when I close my eyes

and dare to let my mind float.